Thursday, May 2, 2013

Unit 10 Blog REFLECTION S. Gillmore


 

Unit 10 Blog

Sharon Gillmore

After careful review of Unit 3 I realize that I need to spend a little more time on me!  In unit 3 we were asked to rate the following components of ourselves:  Physical wellbeing, psychological well-being, and spiritual well-being.

 In my Unit 3 blog I rated myself a 5 for the physical capacity and after careful reflection, I think I overstated my rating.  I am surely not a 5 and as stated before am working on my physical health.  I actually have an appointment on May 30th for a series of tests for my heart and cardiovascular system. Fear was keeping me from keeping such an appointment but the alternative just may be the end of my life, so I am going to keep this appointment and just bite the bullet and face whatever is wrong. So overall, I am going in the right direction on this one.

Spiritually, I rated myself in unit 3 as a 9.  I am going to stay with this rating as I really am faith bound and feel certain that I would be more of a mess than I already am without the help of my higher power. 

In unit 3 I rated myself as an…..  UGH in Psychological.  Yes, that was the very word I used.  Maybe I am better than an UGH now, but have a far way to go.  I have eliminated some negativity from my life but still life with the fear of its return.  I would assess that the score has changed a bit as I have implemented some personal goals for myself and feel like I am at least driving in the right direction.

The goals that I have implemented for myself are reasonable and attainable. I am making myself take time from work for a visit with my physician, and am participating in the requested tests.  I still don’t want to go….but I promise, I am on my way.  Spiritually I have committed to meeting with my priest friend at least once every other weekend to discuss some spiritual issues and expand my knowledge and faith.  I am actually enjoying this needed change in my life.  Psychologically…….well some things just are not able to be changed, but how we view them are, so I have changed my thinking and it is helping.  Some people you just cannot change and some issue we have no control over, but as the old adage say’s: It’s how you dance in the rain.  I am really working towards eliminating the clutter and drama in life and I feel lighter and not so anxious.

My personal experience with his course is a very positive one. (I still need to work on the inner chatter!)  I may not have yet developed improved well-being but I am much more aware and much more in-tuned with what needs to be done and how to go about attaining my desired outcomes. In answer to the professor’s question, has this been difficult…I would say yes.  Change is hard always and the desire must be there to make the changes.  I started out very resistant, and honestly only wanted to get through this course with a decent grade.  Interestingly enough, I came to really enjoy the reading the work and the brain picking assignments, and I HAVE LEARNED about me in a way that I was so resistant to originally. The reward of this course is that I am not a change person, and this course has dramatically changed how I feel about my health and wellness. I feel more confident that with this knowledge I can help others.

Thanks for taking this journey with me!

Sharon

 

 

 

 

 

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Unit 9 Project Blog Sharon Gillmore



Introduction:
Why is it important for health and wellness professionals to develop psychologically, spiritually and physically? What areas do you need to develop to achieve the goals you have for yourself?

It is important that all health and wellness providers develop psychologically, spiritually and physically because we are helping others to develop in these areas and we could not possible help others if we cannot help ourselves.  Dacher points out that we are becoming “general contractors” (page 120) and we are assuming responsibility of not only our own paths, but the paths and journeys of others.  Integral health requires a helper or a mentor and in order to be that mentor we have to have our own houses in order. I think we can further develop over time but we are being held responsible for the overall health and happiness of other people and must do so with responsibility and positive loving intent.

There are a few areas of concern that I have for myself that I will continue to develop.  As I have pointed out throughout this course I have difficulty with creating a subtle mind.  I can certainly tell you how to get to this lovely place but in turn I have trouble getting there myself.  I need to work on the clutter in my mind.  I also need to work on Universal loving-kindness.  Although I am a very loving and giving person I still have trouble with the art of forgiveness.  I still love, but cannot forget.  I also need help with the dependent relationships that Dacher talks about. (pg. 90)  I need to learn to accept the wonders of all relationships but to rid of the one’s that cause me harm or discontent.  My favorite thing that Dacher says is: “without a genuine inner life, authentic intimacy with another is not possible.  We cannot find outside until we find inside.” I struggle with this aspect and am concerned that I will falter with someone else’s life and destiny if I cannot get this together.  I need to learn to let go of the negativity and move into a more positive direction in life.


Assessment: How have you assessed your health in each domain? How do you score your wellness, spiritually, physically, and psychologically?

There was a time, not so long ago, that I would have stated that overall I was a happy and content person.  Having taken this course and read material and talked with others about what I have read and learned, I am beginning to question really how ‘well’ I am.  Dashers’ book has caused me to soul search. I have really been thinking about my existence, and the meaning of my life.  I have wondered about where I have been and where I am going and am finding discontent in many areas of my life.   I read and read and find that I am just floating through life, sort of robotically, without deep substance.   In reading this wonderful book and knowing Dasher’s five guidelines to integral health I realize et that I am missing some important pieces of the puzzle. Yes, I am evolving, but am I going at a snail’s pace because I have become complacent? Am I psychospiritually together?  I thought so, maybe not. Biologically I presume I am a mess.  I really do not take care of my physical health at all, and as a nurse I should certainly know better.  After carefully reading Dacher’s guidelines I have come to Intentional.  I am proactively involved and determine all my own choices and proceed to carrying them out.  Person-centered is taking an individual approach to exploration.  I am person-centered about everyone else, but I am always last on this list.  I need to devise a plan that is truly unique to me and my own needs. I am dynamically charged and do things in life with true gusto, but the truth is I do many things with a blindfold wrapped tightly around my eyes. I seem to just do it!

So to access my overall wellness, I would say that for my age I am unstoppable.  I have a tremendous amount of energy and do in one day’s time what others would have trouble doing in three, but I ignore the part of health that should be controlled by meeting with my physician and having a plan in mind.  Spiritually I feel as though I am intact.  I have a huge faith that keeps me going from day to day.  I know that I am guided by a higher power to be what I am supposed to be and do what I am supposed to be doing. Physically, ugh, that is another story.  I am about 15 pounds over my desired weight.  I do not eat well as I am a self-proclaimed vegan and repeat eat.  I do not make healthy choices much of the time. I need to really see a nutritionist to move forward in the most healthful way that I can. Psychologically I feel that I am constantly working toward some peace and quiet and serenity in my life.   This area is never where I would like for it to be.  I crave quiet and contentedness, neither that I receive or enjoy. I simply work hard at being happy instead of just being happy. 


Goal development:
List at least one goal you have for yourself in each area, Physical, Psychological (mental health) and Spiritual.

In the physical department I know I need to get up and move my body.  I need to find a way to exercise even if in small amounts per day.  Recently I have been walking my grand-dog at night.  We go for a long, long, walk and I have been picking up the pace each time we go now.  I need to make time to just get my body going. 

Psychologically:  I need to tend to me.  I am a people pleaser and will go out of my way to help others even if it means I hurt myself.  I need to stop this action and make serious time to tend to my emotional needs.  I am working very diligently at trying to rid of all the negative people and the drug addiction that I have to deal with. I am a stressful person with little outlet.  I need to also devise a plan to release some stress in some way.  All in all and for all that I have been through I have found a way to make it, to master living.  Now that I have met Dr. Dacher I have to revise how I think and make a new way of life. 

Spiritually I feel connected and have great faith.  I pray every day and have a respect for my higher power.  I feel content with my spirituality.


Practices for personal health:
What strategies can you implement to foster growth in each of the following domains; Physical, Psychological, and Spiritual. Provide at least two examples of exercises or practices in each domain. Explain how you will implement each example.


Physical:  I am committed to walking every day and trying to incorporate some sort of exercise routine in my life.  I decided long ago to take the steps as opposed to elevators (which I am squeamish about anyway) as a form of bodily movement. I also am committed to spending more time swimming this summer (I have a built in pool that I clean and vacuum and never use) I need to watch my diet and rid of some of the poisonous white sugary products that I so love. I think it is time to see a nutritionist and stop feeding myself the junk that I eat.

 

Psychological: Years ago I worked with a wonderful therapist just to get through life with a bigger smile on my face.  She helped me to find ways to calm myself down and stop and smell the roses.  I have been thinking lately that I may return for a ‘tune up’, just to touch base and get some help with the addicts in my life.  I also have recently begun to return to NA meetings to help cope with the poor addictive behaviors of those around me. I am also big into journaling.  I have always kept a journal with my deepest thoughts and fears and dreams.  I re-read the entries every once in a while to make sure that my train is headed on track in the right direction.  I find this exercise most helpful and beneficial to my good thinking patterns.  I will continue to journal.

 

Spiritual: Although I feel that this area is not a concern for me, I need to find more time to connect on a deeper level with my higher power.  I even pray in a hurry and find this act counterproductive. Prayer can come in many forms and I am going to find a new prayer session as opposed to being half asleep, in my bed, begging for forgiveness and bartering with the good Lord.  I do have a very good friend that is a catholic priest.  We have been spending time together discussing religious issues and spirituality and he even helped me with one of our projects as I picked his brain for his input.  He has asked me many times to join him for scripture class and maybe this is something I should consider.  I should also find time to reconnect with nature, as I think that this is a spiritual outlet. I need to pray more, think less and let go.

 

Commitment:
How will you assess your progress or lack of progress in the next six months? What strategies can you use to assist in maintaining your long-term practices for health and wellness?

I don’t think that this one can be done alone.  I am only fooling myself to say that I will get a physical exam and work diligently with my doctor to lower my cholesterol.  I have had a blood work lab slip for months.  Maybe it is time to commit to getting this simple blood work done and facing the music. I will ask my good friend, Charles, the priest to assist me in my spiritual journey and allow him to make assessment as we go forward.  I will commit to attending Mass more regularly and stop making excuses about not having the time.  It’s time to make time!  I will commit to walking and moving my body and I can assess that outcome by getting on the scale or even testing my blood sugar.  I think that it is important to let someone that you know that is close to you that you are working to make serious steps in your life.  It’s ok to ask for help and assistance and to have input from others, which is what I will do. I hope that I can continue to move in a more positive Integral direction in life and to be happier and healthier and to stop simply going through the motions.

 


Dacher, E.S. (2006) Integral Health: The Path to Human Flourishing. Laguna Beach: Basic  Health Publications, Inc.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

UNIT 8 Blog, S. Gillmore

Review the exercises and practice sessions you have completed in this course. (Loving Kindness, Subtle mind, Visualization, meditation etc.) Choose two practices that you have determined to be most beneficial. How can you implement these practices in your personal life to foster “mental fitness”? Provide specific examples.

I have so enjoyed each of these, yet two have stood out in my own mind as being more successful than the others.  I would like to share how I feel about each of them before I answer the questions stated.

Loving-kindness makes so much sense to me and I couldn't agree more with the concept.  It seems the equivalent to "turn the other cheek" in the Bible.  I have tried and tried  the whole loving-kindness concept and find this one most difficult.  I am a loving person, calm and true to those that I love, always helpful (to a fault) and willling to share your pain and yet the loving-kindness factor changes when I am thinking of the person or people that have hurt me the most.  I presume I practice loving-kindness without realizing that I do so.  Regardless of others actions, I find myself simply keeping my voice unheard and praying for that person.  I guess I am getting the concept with struggles.

The subtle-mind, oh my goodness, this one is tough for me.  No matter how many times I try to clear my mind, I feel like my mind is a major highway with stuff driving all over it.  I keep trying and trying to get my mind to be totally free of the chatter that we all kep talking about.......not too succeessful, but I will keep trying!

Visualization is the one that I can get.  My mother used to tell us as children,' don't keep saying you are gonna do it, see yourself doing it, and it will happen!"  Very true words.  I can actually make myself be very still and calm and allow myself to visualize being somewhere or with someone to the point that I feel like I get taken away from reality.  When we did the visualization piece for class I could feel myself in the presence of my dear friend that crossed over.  I could actually smell his cologne.  I am sure to continue to use this great technique to get to where it is in life that I am heading.  I am tryng hard to 'see myself' there. 

Meditation is one that I am still practicing yet feel as though I can master on some level.  I think that visualization and meditation go hand in hand.  If you can meditate you can visualize and vise versa.  I use meditation thoughout my day and don't even realize it.  My job (like most) is very stressful and frustrating to say the least, at times.  When it becomes too much to handle and my neck begins to tense up and my palms begin to sweat and my heart begins to race, I go to my office, turn on my ,ittle fan, turn off the overhead light and place a "do not disturb, conference call " plackard on my door.  I take about 5-7 minutes to JUST SIT and breath.  Yes all the 'stuff' rolls in and out of my head but I find that if I saty very focused on my breathing that the time slips by without notice and the symptoms that casued me to shut my door start to dissapate.  I will continue to use htis practice as it seesm to get me through the hard days. 

So for me, visualization and meditation are the two exercises that best suit me personally.  I would like to master the suble mind and get better at loving-kindness.  I will keep trying!

Sharon

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Unit 7 Blog: One cannot Lead

Describe the saying: "One cannot lead where one has not gone himself".  Do you have ano bligation to your clients to be developed psychologically, spiritually and physically?

As Wilbur puts it, "do not confuse the map with the territory".  Having a map of Hawaii is not like being there.  The ability to see the divine in everyone and treat each individual as though he were Christ or Budda himself can transform the suffering of illness into the grace of healing.
This quote is about the 'healer".  I take this to mean how can we heal others if indeed we cannot heal ourselves.  How can we teach integral health to others if we suffer form poor health either phsycally, spiritually or psychologically? I guess we would have to be able to see the good in all people to be successful in our chosen careers; however I thought about this statement and took it a bit further and would like to share for some feedback.
"One cannot lead where one has not gone himself".  I am not a drug addict.  Quite the contrary..I don't even take prescribed medications.  I refuse the treatment of cholesterol medication, would't take pain killers unless I was dying and had all natural births the Bradley way..quiet, peaceful and without intervention.  Having said this, I have to say that I somehwat disagree with the statement if you were talking about anything but seeing the divine in others.  I want to become a drug councelor.  It's my greatest wish and dream.  I presume I want this so badly because there has been some addiciton in my family that has been very painful for me.  Can I fix these people?  No!  Can I learn about these people?  Yes!  Can I offer hope?  Most defiantley!  Although I have not traveled the same path as the addicts I feel more than certain that I have the ability to bring something to the table about life in general.  So, I can lead where I have not gone.  Any thoughts out there?

Do you have an obligation to your clients to be developed psychologically, spiritually and physically?I presume we would have to obligated to taking care of these facets of our lives.  If I weighed 400 pounds perhaps I wouldn't be taken too seriously if I were teaching nutirition, and honestly we can't see the spiritual side of someone, but I wouldn't want a non-believer to guide me to a place that he or she doesn't believe in anymore than I would want a serioulsy mental ill person caring for my mental health. I do think that we owe it to our patient/client base to keeps close tabs on our own integral health in order to help others to flourish.

Sharon

Blog Unit # 7 Meeting Aesclepius

Wow, this one was powerful for me.  Maybe because I am  on Benedryl for allergies, but if so, it's quite a concoction.
Dasher starts out talking about our minds becoming a lazy river and it made me chuckle, as I think of my mind like the grand rapids at Niagra Falls.  The gola in this exercise is to take that lazy river mind and go to the lazy ocean.  Oh boy, I just knew this was going to be a tough one.

I loved the woman's voice in this exercise.  I found it very relaxing and assurring. When asked to think of a mna, either here or passed I had a tough time, but came up with a long ago frined of the family.  His name was Jack.  He has passed and I miss him.  I had a lot of respect for Jack.  He was an older Jewish man of great faith.  He was loving and kind and just a wonderful human being.  At first I had to visualize Jack and had a hard time, and then I decided to just let mysefl go and really 'get with it' this time.  I actually feel as though I was with Jack, on the beach, sitting on the sand.  Jack made beautiful brooches with old watch pieces and interestingly enough, I saw these peices in his hands.  I felt as though I really was spending time with him.  The background music was very peaceful and I felt like I could have gone right to sleep. (If only I could feel this way at 10:00 pm).  I felt as though Jack had treuly become my focal point and I cold definatley connect with him on a odd level.  I had some difficulty with the white light part of the tape.  I was so content with just visiting jack in my mind that I couldn't focues on obtaining the white light.  I am going to re-paly the tape this evening and try to get to the white light.  I could most surely tell you that I felt as though I was in the presence of my friend, Jack. 
Awesome exercise!
Sharon

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Unit 6 Integral Assessment Chapter 11, pg. 115

Describe the assessment process.  What self discoveries have you made?  What are the area of growth and development have you chosedn to focus on?  What are some specific exercises that can be used to foster greater wellness?


"Close your eyes and try the exercise.  Rest into the ease and stillness of your mind and body, releasing all mental activity.   When quiet ask yourself which aspect of your life-pychospiritual, biological, interpersonal, or wordly and focus on the area."  Dasher (2006) pg. 115

I have tried and tried this assessment and it is making me feel kinda bad about myself.  At first I though, for me personally, I needed to adress the biological part of my life since I am a "bad nurse" I don't take the time to address my physical health, so that would be my first point of interest.  Then I kept on reading and realized that perhaps I should work on some interpersoanl relationsips..as my fam,ily is always in turmoil (addiciton issues)...and then I kept reading.  Maybe I should be focused on my spiritual part of my life. alhtough of all of the choices to be concerned with, this would need my least attnention.  The overall discovery that I have made in this exercise of thought is this:  I am a mess, a true work in progress.  I guess I should address my physical health first, becuase if I doe I won't have to worry about the rest. The more I read of this information the more I feel badly.  Literally I have been feeling not so well physically since reading htis material.  Yes, I know, MIND, BODY and SPIRIT are all one in the same.  This has been eye opening!
HELP!
Sharon

Unit 6 Blog LOVING-KINDNESS

Practice the loving-kindness meditation exercise on page 93
Describe the exercse.  Describe your self discoveries.

As Dasher suggests, loving-kindness doesn't onlty apply to intimate relationships, it applies to all persons.  I have tired the exercise more than a few times since this past Saturday.  I had to memorize the words in the phrase in order to close my eyes and truely listen to the words in my head. 

 May all individuals gain freedeom from suffereing.  I sort of turned this into a prayer session and made myself think of the people in my personal life with suffereing and as I sadi the words I thought of the person. This was hard for me to do as some of the people in my head are not the nicest people or treated me with any level of loving-kindness, but I continue to forge forward and try the exercise.   I repeated the exercise for each group of words and applied the sam application to those same people and all people.  Honestly, I have had a very diffiuclt time with this exercise.  The 'chatter' in my head will not stop.  I know that htis exercise can reverse angre and hatred so I keep on trying.  I don't think that this exercise can be mastered immediatly or at least not the first couple of times.  This is an ongoing piece of work.
Is anyone else experiencing a diffiuclt time with this exercise?

Sharon